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closure

2009-05-04T11:21:00.000-07:00

this site is so dead. so am i.

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Tiada Logika

2006-09-15T11:58:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, certain things seem to be so irrelevant, yet it happens. Hey2..hold on for secs. Dont worry, guys. I'm not going to give any lectures. This isn't about what one should do and not. Not that thingy tips how to get a supermodel body like Tyra Banks. It is just some points to ponder. Something to think about.They just popped up in my mind accidentally during my leisure (wasted) time in the surgery class. Here are some illogical points and moments that I would like to share.

Tiada Logika: Stage 1
i)Mr X: Dah 3-4 tahun belajar Ruski, tak malu ke, tak segan ke kalau tak pernah escape?
Ain: Huh?!!

ii)"Now I can blame someone for my not improving russian language."

Ain:Huh?!(My Russian sucks too...A big time. But,dont blame others. Dude, chill out!)

Tiada Logika:Stage 2
i)Mak: Ain,ade keluarkan duit ke dari Giro? Ayah dah checked buku akaun kat bank. Tinggal RM6 je.
Ain: Huh??!! Takde. Last, mase 1st year....2003
Mak: Ni ade transaction ni. Tarikh last die, 12 Sept 2006. Ada withdrawal RM3576.00
Ain: Ish...mana ade. Takde la mak..
Mak: Takpe2, nanti minta ayah check semula

ii)Jr. S: Kawan saya dulu kan..Die puasa sebulan Syaaban. Tapi Ramadhan tak penuh.
Ain: Lelaki ke perempuan?
Jr. S: Lelaki..
Ain: Huh??!!

Tiada Logika:Stage3
Miss D: Where's the others?
Miss G: All of my groupmates are sick.
Ain: Huh?!

Tiada Logika:Stage 4
Mama: Ain, I was mopping Ali's toilet. Suddenly, water drips from the ceiling. May be it's from your shower.
Ain: But.......(Under us is Kak Amy's block. Not Ali's)

Tiada Logika: Stage 5
I never let any metal stuff kisses my rice cooker. Somehow I'd realized some nasty scrathes on its surface.

Ok...enough for Tiada Logika. In some circumstances, we did try to avoid something from happening. It is indeed so difficult. It's like you're pushing it, but the others trying to pull it. Isn't it ironic? Nothing much you could do. You've done your part, the others should play their parts too. TQ for reading....

p/s: Sorry, some conversation was taken without permission. The author just extracted them. The author refused to reveal names of those involved.

-The Author-

adios amigos!!!

2006-09-09T03:44:00.000-07:00

hey guys, i think this is it then...ive decided to close this blog officially...so u can start erase my name from ur link....why? no need to explain...just..i find some new place...=)

ok then....and im officially gone

*poof*

randomness

2006-09-04T18:02:00.000-07:00

Me: ma, camera ila keno curi
Mama: duit?
Me: duit ado..camera jah keno amik…
Mama: xpo, camera jah, asal duit ado, gambar buleh copy dr saing

Week later

Me: ma, wallet keno curi pulok
Mama: ila ok x?
Me: ok….
Mama: xpo…duit jah, asal ila selamat, duit buleh pinjey dr saing

Me then…freaking out!

2006-09-04T07:46:00.000-07:00

summer break....over.....vicious cycle..here i come..!

well...as for my trip to italy..ratey...totally agree with u...it was gr8, interesting...n i did enjoy myself...even though got some teeny-weeny unpleasent incident over there like someone took my camera on the 2nd day, lost my transportation card,accidentally dropped my perfume on the floor..(which is still half full), being sexually harassed by a dimwit-drunken-moroccan-guy in milan train station, n lost my wallet on the last day in rome..err..actually someone took it while i slept at the station. Apart from that...i love it! love rome, love trevi fountain, venice, ice cream, ..owh n the pizza...my god! the best pizza so far ive ever tried. Plus ..italy won the world cup...Yeah! i know..its a bit lame to talk bout world cup now.....

and so.....here i am...continuing my journey over here in russia...well...wish me luck for my new sem...!

buh bye!!!

2006-07-04T04:06:00.000-07:00

well mate...im off to ITALY...wuhuu...

tAtA!!!!

It's Hot, Getting hot, and Even Hotter

2006-06-23T12:21:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum and howdy,
It's summer. This year's summer is the most unbearable. It's like your internal organs are being heated by Gamma ray. It's like doing the higher level yoga exercise; walking with bare feet on the hot charcoals. It's like jump into a hot glowing ignited gas that is generated by something on fire.(May be I'm exaggerating it) But, that is nothing compared to Hellfire. ~Keinsafan melanda diri~

'The Shop'
Yesterday was a money making day for Eldorado. Eldorado happens to be the nearest shop selling electrical goods. So, bunches of students marched to Eldorado with the same mission and purpose.The aim is one; to purchase some appparatuses with rotating blades that create a current of air for cooling or ventilation, which is called fan or in russian; ventilator.

'The Fan'
The fan is worth for your rubles!! The atmosphere of the room changed as you turn on the fan. Your gloomy room suddenly becomes brighter. You could sense a feeling of happiness in your room. Your bed becomes a cold cloud. You have the mood for study and 'stido' at the same time.

'The Weird Things'
But, in Russia there are lots of weird fans or ventilators. Have you ever see a fan which cant rotate 180 degrees? I mean, the ventilating part is static. Well, you can find such models in Russia and Amani has one. We just love to 'kutuk' her fan. Then, Anis ended up by buying her own fan. This one is the normal fan. It rotates just like a normal fan in Malaysia. But Intan and Suhaili have the most unusual fan. As the blades rotate, the current goes backward, which mean the cooling effect can be felt from the back of the fan. I do hope they go to Eldorado once again and fix it.

'Rezeki'
Ok, the end for the fan thigy. It's so hot outside. You could see Russians in their half naked outfits. Summer is the time for the guys to 'cuci mata'. They would say, "Pandangan pertama itu rezeki". Oh, bullshit. Is that you call 'rezeki' if you keep staring at them? Is it still 'rezeki' if you purposely wear the sunglasses so that people dont see that your eyes are actually fix at the sexy gilrs?

'Tepuk dada tanya selera'
Well, as for girls, is the high temperature can be an excuse for you to expose your aurah?To be like the Russians? Have ever you fear the punishment in the Day After? Or you just want to challenge The Almighty? Just ask yourself..

Ok,enough. Sorry if today's entry is hurting in some parts. I do belive words are even sharper than a sword. I mean no harm, I come in peace. See you next time..
Wassalam

~written by This is Not Adilla~

amani

2006-06-22T14:31:00.000-07:00

2006-06-20T10:53:00.000-07:00

someone wants to marry a prince!! childhood dream...so..please..if anyone out there happens to know any royal blood XY.....u know what to do!

p/s: i wont tell u who the girl is ...go figure out by urself!

n owh..it is not amani for sure....=p

PHARMACOISM

2006-06-20T04:16:00.000-07:00

Intoxication by pharmacology

mechanism of action:

5 days non stop reading katzung or lippincot

symptoms:

1) general disturbances such as head ache, drowsiness, dizziness, nausea n vomitting
2) tachycardia, palpitation, sweating, insomnia
3) increase of appetite (dpnds on pt, diff ppl diff adaptation)
4) significance symptom:
- when u start using complex sentences in ur daily life.
e.g. normal ppl --> "i think im having a depression...i need a rest!"
pt with pharmaco intox --> "i think im having insufficiency of monoamine in
my synapse somewhere in my brain..i dunno maybe
norepinephrine or serotonin...i need an
antidepression...give me some imipramine, phenelzin
or whatever..."

- when u start thinking of naming ur future children with a drugs name such as monteleukast, zafirleukast, amantadine, norepinephnire, ephidrine etc...

- when everytime u wanna go to sleep, every time u want to close ur eyes.....complex drugs names start bombarding ur mind............codeine, atropine, pancreatin, methimazole, chlorpromazine, omeprasole........

Complication:
1) withdrawal syndrome --> rare
2) physical n psychological dependance --> rare

antidote:
1) avoid pharmaco completely
2) F.R.I.E.N.D.S series (this one will surely get ur mind away from pharmaco)

This is not Adilla

2006-06-17T10:47:00.000-07:00

This is not Adilla,
I wasn't born in Kelatan,
My parents aren't Kelantanesse,
I went to Kelantan thrice.

This is not Adilla,
I used to be a debater,
Being a debater was never a regret,
I'm missing the adrenaline rush feeling.

This is not Adilla,
She doesn't have a friend named Sweetnorfa,
She doen't have a senior named Lalat,
She never been in Mozac.

This is not Adilla,
She will having Pharmaco exam,
I alrealdy passed,
It was the toughest of all.

This is not Adilla,
I will never be her,
She will never be me,
This is me then....

joke of the day

2006-06-15T09:03:00.000-07:00

Stoner Shopping Trip

A stoner walks into a gas station and asks the dude at the counter, "Got any weed?" The man politely replied, "Um, no sir. We do not sell marijuana here." So he left.
The same guy comes back the next day and says, "Got any weed?" The man behind the counter, although slightly annoyed, patiently replied, "No sir. We don't sell marijuana." So the man went home.
He goes once again to the gas station. And again, he says to the guy working there, "Got any weed?" By this time the other dude was pissed. He yells, "You freakin' refer-lovin', pot-head burn-out! I told you, we don't sell that crap here! If you ever come back in here asking for that filthy crap again, I'll nail your freaking feet to the floor. Got it? Now beat it before I call the cops." So the stoner left.
The next day he went back to the same old place with a dopey smile on his face. He went to the cashier and said, "Got any nails?" The man hesitated, then replied, "um, no. . . sir, we don't sell nails here." The stoner grinned. "Got any weed?"

random stuff...

2006-06-14T03:19:00.000-07:00

Hi i'm adilla. Remember me?

im still alive...trapped in this vicious cycle...hoho...mahu keluar dari lingkaran ini...susahnya...

Well...im done with surgery n internal med...but still 2 more to go..!

Penatnya...

hey...kamu kanak2 UK!....ive heard u guys had finish ur sem....dah balik malaysia eh???

*jealousy looming in nizhny*

aduih...ngantuk..tp xle tido...withdrawal syndrome....CNS stimulant...the effect is still there...

*tolong*

nothing much in my life lately....dullness it is... like the percussion on the liver...

*oh internal med..go away...*

got sms from my mum yesterday....asked me to call her....sound like serious...so i grabbed filzah's hp (im out of credit.....im broke....pity me...) n call her....nothing much actually...benda kecik je.....my big bro...the only functional older brother i have.....wants to get marry.

*huh ah....nothing big*

besides....he's *big* n *mature* enough to be someone's husband....he's 23 y.o

see..told you nothing to worry about <-- monolog dalaman utk diri sendiri

owh and by the way.....the future sister in law is a year younger than me...

nah...it can't be that bad.maybe i'll encounter small prob like what should i address her in future....kak or just simply her name...but it is indeed not a major problem...

so the chat between mum n her daughter continued....lalalala....

then...mama said..."ila...sbnrnya...abe long nk kawin this august...tunggu kak ila balik dulu la..."

WHAT??????????????

no way

its too soon...i mean..it is superrrr soon...im not ready to accept a stranger into my life yet...this august should be me-n-my-nucleus-family time....aduhhhh..besides i don't know her....i just met her once last year....

was it supposed to be this way...why can't i be happy for them??maybe they both serious..i don't know...somehow i felt someone is taking my brother from me....maybe this is all about being the only girl in my sibblings...jealous??? well..maybe. bottom line....im not mentally prepared yet...that's it!

somehow this thing become a major problem in my life now.

ADUHHH!!

i need sedative drugs

summer holiday

2006-05-12T08:49:00.000-07:00

So..everybody r talking bout their summer holiday..well as for me..it is decided then.....ITALY ..here i come!

Liputan kursk

2006-05-04T21:26:00.000-07:00

Picture first...

us in the bus (16hrs huhu)
ping pong female team
nicky n kak put

nickita dengan hebatnya meng"chop" bola
the futsal team...(yerp that is indeed ain n anis) with their coach

ain rocks! yeah..

futsal male
raja me kak lina kak ieja
volleyball female team
with our coach

tgh lepak tunggu next game

volgo vs m1....no 1 - mubin
our innocent-looking-male team

haha...alex tgh bagi tips

m2 team...spot hilman if u can m2 waveeee
nicky n kak put

see glid there?

Words from me:

gome friends!! lama x update...huhu...been quite busy lately...xm,class,korean film, kursk, path phys lalalala.....anyhoo right now im on cycle break...cuti 10 hari ...muahaha....padan muka korg yg lain ada class (n that goes esp to amani yg tgh cycle internal med)

ok....hmm meh cite psl kursk la...huhu

yeah..yeah...as usual...we lost so badly!! Our NNSMA got the last place AGAIN(nombor gusuk bak kata org kelantan). Sad ? of course...but we did have our fun though....maybe sbb dah immune asyik kalah tiap2 tahun...haha...

some facts or memories of KURSK 06:
- the journey was super longggg.....16 hrs
- there r a lot of CB over there...haha...fakta ini dipersetujui oleh ramai org...ada yg like...whoa..that one like the korean guy in the film bla..bla..bla...n this one like the model.....n that one sebijik macam bla...bla...bla...
- the sweetest memory ......our winning on kursk..yepp....the host....despite all the loud cheer from the kursk ppl....time tu cuak gila...but the thing is...what we did, we assumed that the cheer was meant for us...haha...n suddenly we've got the spirit n the grooves.......*sweeeet* ..oh ya..btw..for those who don't know....i didn't play netball anymore.....i play volleyball now..new obsession..im a big fan of volleyball....*grin*
- even though we lost to other universities...i was really proud though....! kitorg kalah agak tipis...like 25-20...26-24...hmm...we did improve..hehe..tp tahap keminingkatan kitorg somehow selalu one step backward from other team...bila la bleh catch up...
- antara faktor2 kekalahan :
1) not enough player (obviously)....150 ++ students in nizhny(correct me if im wrong)...n player needed in kursk ....100
2) not enough practise..proper practise only once a week...n the rest..main2 sendiri dpn hostel...tu pun selalu berebut tempat ngan other games...we should do something bout this...!
3) jersey x cantik! huhu....(saja nk banyakkan lagi fakta..)
4) penyokong kurang......(boo hoo amani, intan n the rest.....korang harus dipersalahkan jgk.....hehe..)
etc....
- the management was quite good...the food was quite nice even though some complaints bout the quantity..sikit sangat katanya....(yep..org yg complain itu adalah golongan lelaki)....i think it was better than volgo games...
- hey...who said we lost all games...some of us did get medals...ehemm..ehemm..im proud to announce....hafizah husna (cik nicky kita) got silver...in ping pong...together with kak put (double), kak amy - gold in bowling (no wonder....ive heard that she was the state player or something..), female bowling team - bronze, male bowling single - bronze......n when their names were announced by the emcee...adala suara2 sumbang kedengaran..dr depan seat ku..."ada jgk yg menang rupanya..ingatkan kalah terus"...zap...menusuk kalbu..huhu
- the most thrilling n interesting games ever...i should say the volleyball match male between RSMU n KURSK. (final match)....seriously..cam tgk international games...best player....of course alex (adik nicholas...yerp..our nicholas)...he used to be in malaysian junior team...haha..over there he was like the star...gadis2 semua sibuk bergambar dgn dia...hehe...kelakar la jgk sbnrnya

verdict: kursk 06 , not that bad

i wish we can do better next time...eh x...i wish the next batch yg nk dtg nizhny ada yg pemain negeri ke daerah ke pepe laa...........................

Where is the difference

2006-04-14T07:44:00.000-07:00

Why are we here?
The question is are we so different from you?
The question is simple...we are NOT.
Understand please, that we are not at home,
Leaving home is not that easy,
Learning another culture n language is not easy, in fact,
Nothing is.
We come here with an admiring fact that russia is a great nation,
We are here with honest thoughts of learning ur culture, the way of life and to seek knowledge of different fields that u have been practising for generations.
We share the same problems, the same discomforts, the same inflation, the same modernization,
Yet, are we not one of you?
We eat the same foods, we breath the same air, we walk on the same ground, same hopes n fears.
The only difference is our language n skin colour.
Difference in skin colour blinds you so much?
Look again, we are all HUMANS!
Your land is grand, its beuty n history lavish, we want to fit in, to feel it's alright to be here,
Is that why you think that we should be subjected to inhuman acts?
To watch us bleed n cry is fun??
Does it satisfy you? Is it revenge enough?
We are created in equals.
Who r u to judge us? To decide how we should suffer?
You see, the essence of human is the mind,
It is the thing that differentiates us from animals,
How is that u cannot see that?
That we r the same as u...

* these had been composed by 2 anonymous girls n was distributed during the strikes (refer to http://cruzed.blogspot.com/ for details

HIGH!!

2006-04-11T10:11:00.000-07:00

I AM SO HIGH!! agaga....nope i don't do drugs, weeds, sheesha or whatsoever....im the surgeon assistant!! hoho...the greatest feeling ever...seriously...no words can describe it...u will not understand it until u try it...i mean the feeling was just so good...great...HIGH...although pegang that retractor je..but still....syok gileee....haha..nampak je cool..padahla nervous gile..the classmates told me that they can see my hands shaking..haha...owh btw...it was a hernia operation...hehe..actually ...i was too nervous....i was like berselawat the whole time...huhu...ye la..who knows..anything can happen right??....

owh...and u know what.....actually the nurse asked me to take off my tudung....of course i refused....buat muka kesian la time tu kat afdonin (my teacher...aka the surgeon in the pic)...afdonin kasi je...BEST....hmm
im just wondering...how female surgeon in malaysia works?? i mean do they hv to remove the scarf...or there is some kind of sterilized scarf or how??? enlighten me frens....

Me n Celebrities

2006-03-31T08:31:00.000-08:00

Im bored...im laptopless...i hv no money...but i still got time to waste..haha....got this cool site from azreena....www.myheritage.com....its all about which celebrity u resemble the most...catchy...haha..so..here we go..which celebrity i resemble the most??

1st attempt:
1) chloe savigny <-- who??
2) mena suvari <-- the girl from LOSER ..cool!!
3) Junichiro koizumi <-- haha...i hv no idea who this is..after some googling...i found out that he is the current prime minester of japan...but me...him??? apakahh??
4) Gina lolobrigida <-- veteran actress maybe..
5)Boa <--- huh...sungguh xde persamaan...

2nd attempt:
1) Elisha cuthbert <-- House of wax...the girl next door...ngeh...ngeh..
2)Kelly McGillis <-- huh?
3)Salma hayek <-- whoaaaa...!!!!
4) Scarlett Johansson<---- whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!
5) Umberto Nobile <--- pilot...whoeverlah...

cukupla setakat 2 attempt....ku x mampu menahan lagi....

To do list

2006-03-22T03:54:00.000-08:00

i hv like 37 days to spend during my summer break....yerp..modicum, mini holiday...

my to do list:

1) drive away to pc n grab nasi lemak tc .. my favourite food since i was 7 yrs old...even during my primary school, my mum will drop by n tapau nasi lemak for me b4 sent me off to school....n when i went to mrsm langkawi...i remember one time...weekend.. they called it balik bermalam...right away after the plane touch down....after hugging my mum....i just blurted out.."ma..jom nasi lemak tc"..n she was like...."r u really home sick or it was all bout nasi lemak tc..??"..thehe...im addicted!

2) Catch up things with my family...i want to know all the details...huhu...my brothers n their grrrfriend.....i just knew that my youngest brother azim..already had one...huh....teenagers nowadays...what a spoil brat...

3) redecorate my room which is formerly in pink theme!...urghhh!!! my parents..they desperately want me to be a bone fide woman...huhu...imagine this...they paint all the wall in pink n purple colour with flowery wallpaper, pink cupboard, pink table, pink curtain with white dots..pink here..pink there...see....how desperate r they...

4) vacation with family...maybe in jakarta...ntahla..that's what mama planned..

5) gathering with my fellow
friends...zainabians..maresmawians...Aida...kye...(ive heard the aida already planned sumthing for us mara girls...)..yeay..can't wait...!

6) drive new car..yeepee...kereta katok pisey....as what my brother called it...

7) visit relatives....ayoh,mek, cik, ayoh beris.....cousins...neighbours..(owhh...the mini gathering in front of 5005-B..rindu)

8) Amir zhafran is mine for the whole summer...! (refer pic)..to other cousins..get ur hands off him! actually..he's on the top of my -why-i-should-go-back-home-this-summer- list.

9) get involve with some charity works..i wanna contribute something to this world....hmm...join the MERCY ppl..or maybe just hit any rumah anak2 yatim, rumah warga tua, rumah kanak2 istimewa etc..smile n say...."ada apa2 yg boleh saya bantu?"

10) Buy books....medical..religious ...magazines..a lot!!!!

11) get new scrubs....tempah ngan tailor bleh x??

12) movies...esp da vinci's code...! here got no source okey...movies at cinema all in russian..

13) find bf di tepi2 jalan ke...di kedai mana2 ke..kb mall ke..ada x agaknya....<-- obviously not in the desperate tone..more like breezy one..u guys know right how comfort i am in this single zone...no big deal.

14) confront mama bout mr iran....! whoa..this one...i really can't waittttt!!!!

Pain

2006-03-14T01:18:00.000-08:00

I cried last night n i don't know why...let me put it this this way ..something happened which is not worth to tell about. Maybe it's the estrogen thingy...

Does life become more interesting when u have someone to lose? Do u feel that things will be interesting when more problems are involved? Do u feel alive when u hurt someone, use someone or love someone? Does ur life spiced up with all those intertwined plot u create?

my brain is bombarded with all these questions..
i think i should stop listening to these small voices in my head...it hurts.

Or maybe i like the pain, despair, sappy things subconciously...i wonder...or maybe its because im seeking for an attention?? Confusion..like Meredith Grey said in one of the episodes...maybe we r wired that way..maybe without pain we just don't feel real..

why do i keep hitting my head with a hammer? because it feels so good when i stop.

Me in hiatus =(

2006-03-08T09:15:00.000-08:00

My laptop broke down last week. I don't wanna talk bout it..it just killing me. I cannot live without it seriously! So that's the reason of the hiatus.

Hmm...so many things happened lately but now im out of word...

I promise, i'll update this blog as soon as i buy the new hard disk which i still don't know when will it be.....soon my dear.

Lewat malam bersama blog saya

2006-02-28T12:58:00.000-08:00

It's 1200 am n here i am letting my fingers to do the talking on behalf of my semi awake brain (read: sleepy). Actually got a work to do related to biro penerbitan PPIM for next activity"Minggu Usrah". So i browse the net searching for some sources, articles etc..Anyhoo..i came across this one..so let's share it...n think bout it for a little while:

5 advices from Imam Ali R.A.
1. Never put your hope and trust to other than Allah SWT
2. Never ever fear anything else but your own sins
3. Never be afraid to ask, to learn about your deen that you don't know about
4. Never hesitate to say that you don't know about things that you really don't know about
5. Always have sabr (patience) in everything that u do

Another advice from Luqman r.a."Remember 2 things and Forget 2 things
"Remember Allah and Remember Maut (death)
Forget the good things you've done for people... forget the harm people do to you..

Never put ur hope n trust to other than Allah SWT
Sometimes in our daily life, we tend to forget this really important fact. It always happen, either we acknowledge it or not. Scenario 1 - Xm fever..common dialogue among us here " harap2 cikgu yg aku dpt tu baik, tolong aku etc..."By accidently or maybe we didn't mean it, we put our hope on the teacher. So despite of saying that why don't we say..."Ya Allah, aku berharap Kau permudahkan segalanya ke atas ku.Bukaknlah pintu hati cikgu ni nak kasi 5 kat aku...."<-- this is an example!
Scenario 2 - Girl had a big problem. She is so sad n need someone to talk to. She go to her friend, but they don't seem to care because they also got problems. So it hurts the girl more bcause everyone seems to turn back on her..but she didn't realize that there is someone who's always there for her, willing to hear her problems n willing to help her...Yes...we tend to forget Him (we - the girl, me n u). Allah always been there for us. Seek help from Him, because He is the only one who can help us. Talk to Him, trust Him, pray n berdoa! That's what Islam is about..u have the access directly to Allah..xyah org tgh2...atau pepe..

Never ever fear anything else but ur own sins
Bertaubat..When we think bout it again n again, we will realize how much Allah love us. If we make mistakes, bertaubat...insaf...seek for His forgiveness. He is Ar- Rahim, the Merciful.
Hadith Qudsi -
When Allah decreed the Creation He pledged Himself by writing in His book which is laid down with Him:
"My mercy prevails over my wrath."

Never to be afraid to ask, to learn bout ur deen that u don't know about
Never hesitate to say that u don't know about things that u really don't know bout
X bertanya nanti sesat jalan.. the same rules applied here. Actually this one happens to me a lot..sometimes im just not sure bout certain things related to our Deen..n im afraid to ask ppl bout it on a reason that it is too simple or basic things...like Islam 101 (amani! heee..) or maybe im afraid of what other ppl(the ppl whom i want to ask) will think bout me ..something like...ish budak ni yg tu pun x tau...that is soo wrong attitude..n im trying my best to get rid of it...shoohh..skepticism..go away! Alhamdullilah, ive been surrounded by great friends who can help me in understanding Islam better..

Always have patience in everything that u do
Sabar..adilla sabar..this too shall pass..internal med, pharmaco, surgery, path anat, path phys, pavlovna, konstantin, kuznetsov, winter, sejuk, rindu family, abundance of unfinished tasks n list goes on....all this will pass one day..Just be patience! n seek for Allah's guide in everything that u do...rely on Allah alone. Don't ever give up babes. Everything will be OK...(hope so!)

Remember Allah n remember maut....so come on...get urself prepared..get ready..the day will come somehow...where we left this dunia..n we head to the hereafter...the eternal one. Then when we look back..we realize that dunia is only like a pit stop for us b4 we reach our destination...

Forget the things that u've done for ppl n forget the harm ppl do to u
Yeah ..let bygones be bygones..hmm..for instance, despite of thinking what we have contribute or done for others, why don't we think bout what we haven't done yet to others...
n bout the harm thing..maybe pain or week-of-stress somebody gave u..just let it go..then u'll be in no stresssss anynomeree...yippie...Get busy with anything..like ibadah, study etc...don't let ur mind free because ur brain like to play trick on u.. n somehow u end up by recalling of what those little ppl have done...n then once again...STRESS..

well....actually this is something for u..dear reader (i guess that will be amani, intan, jamzuri....tu je kot) to ponder bout.

hehe...i think im done here...wanna to talk some more..but..duty comes first...kena buat flyerss..if not, encik bos will get angry ...hehe..=p

Happy birthday!!

2006-02-27T07:15:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday my dear INTAN n KRIN!!! n welcome to the club! hehe...

Well...today we celebrated intan's birthday at McD and me individually celebrated my victory on abstaining McD for 2 months...*grin*. All on the sake of saving money for my next summer trip.
It's been quite a time since me hang up with mara girls. As usual, we chat...n laughed..trying to catch up new things or refreshing the previous one.. Everyone kind of busy lately. yeah right ..BUSY...

I talked to someone bout this....it started with me whinning bout my life..my hectic life..with my study, the as shams work etc..After letting me blabbering all the way long, he butt in n said " bila Allah sayangkan seseorg, Allah akan sibukkan seseorang itu dgn kerja2 yg bermanfaat supaya banyak amalan yg dpt dibuat"...

then I remember a verse in Al Quran:

"On no soul doth Allah place a burden greater than it can bear. It gets every good that it earns, and it suffers every ill that it earn." Al Baqarah - 286

My heart n my mind sway for a minute....It is true actually...Sometimes i just forget who i am ..i hv no rights to whine...heh...actually it is all my fault for not arranging my time wisely...So..get up lazy ass....n get busy!!

2006-02-25T09:20:00.000-08:00

I AM SORRY PPL!

i am sorry...really sorry...
i am a human..i make mistakes...i am sorry
i know i am sensitive, easily offended or upset...i am sorry
maybe i took things seriously...but the heart just feels what it feels...i am sorry
i know i've dissappointed ppl, frens, the one that i loved....i am really sorry
maybe i seem childish...but i've tried to change...i am sorry
i know i get mad, sad easily....call me cry baby..but this is me....i am sorry
everybody got their flaw....so maybe this is mine...maybe u guys just joking...but once again, the heart feels what it feels....i am sorry
but believe me....i've tried to change...to be a better person. to be a better friends.....so give me some time..bear with me...
so..next time, if this things ever happened again....just give me 10 minutes to be alone, let me cry or whateva...n no need to ask for forgiveness...because believe me friends....since the day that we become good friends....i made a pact that i'll forgive u guys no matter what u did....

i love u guys so muchh n this is true

yours truly,
adilla

2006-02-25T01:47:00.000-08:00

BAD EXAMPLE

I made it again..yeah..i broke the rules once more...the rules which i made up by myself. Actually i made a promise to myself that i will not skip lecture anymore or class this year. heheh...guess what..it's only the 2nd week of new sem n i already skipped the lecture on hygiene today.BAD EXAMPLE...But then.....it's hygiene!!! I mean..it's a really mind torturing subject! Don't blame me..u'll know what im saying if u attend the lecture..plus its saturday..! it's my right to have nice rest on my bed n laze the day away. The teacher should just give us the notes n we can study it by ourselves at home... Even if I attend the lecture...she will just read exactly the same thing what's written on the slide...no explanation..nah ah..zilch...(blaming other la plak...BAD EXAMPLE) so...by this second..i decided to renew my promise....here it goes..... Me, Adilla binti Alimin promise to myself will not ever skip lecture or class, unless there is a hell good reason which prevent me to do so BUT...for hygiene lecture...nah...let just called it special case...optional..yeah! After all...skipping lecture for us it's not a big deal....only misdemeanor.. <-- saja nk sedapkan hati...heh

okla...bout the pic..that's my breakfast today...BAD EXAMPLE...n i called myself medical student...huh...seriously, i think i should pay more attention on my diet..sometimes i just ate without thinking bout the consequences...penat je belajar...ilmu tanpa amal...BAD EXAMPLE....but still..who can ever resist the aroma of asam laksa maggie..*drool*...me? i can't...hehe..in fact...i could sooooo go for another asam laksa maggie right now...

By the way...at 300 pm, im going to the circus with my roommates..yayy!! circus in town...n believe it or not...i,ve never been to any of it b4... wait...hmm...hmm....err....nah...that one was zoo negara...DARN! i saw mickey..gtg!! daaa!!

2006-02-23T08:55:00.000-08:00

IM A NEWBIE....this is only a trial...honestly, i don't feel that this blog will last long..(based on my last experience with xanga)...but who knows??? what do i expect from this blog is....it will give me a chance to express myself out...without anyone judging me..(but if there is..still, who caress??) i'll try my best not to talk bout other ppl in this blog (avoid backbiting)...n lastly let just hope that this will not be one of my-unfinished-project........oh dear bloggy...bear with me!